Goodbye ‘chelle

I was to send this post out a month ago, on the 25th of March 2012; but I was away working in London, at the time. There have been a lot of firsts this year for me, especially being away from my family; such as not being with my kids on Mother’s Day, which was exceptionally weird & kind of empty somewhat.

Without drifting off the point, I have promised myself that I will dedicate this brief post to say my last “goodbye”, on the anniversary of my sister Michelle’s death. Even though she is long gone now, I know she is out there somewhere with this huge smile of hers, knowing that we are fulfilling what may be to come.

Seeing other brothers and sisters out there whether that could be in person or via means of social media, is truly such a beautiful thing to see; whether they may be arguing or joking alongside each other, but most of all when they’re supporting one another (especially via Twitter). I miss that…… the most. From watching those sisters and brothers’ daily moments, sometimes, it is hard for me to find the strength to proceed. My entire family (i.e. cousins, etc.) would often comment on how they have looked up to me for being the “strong” one through all of our dramas; but over the years, it is only my husband who can see that I have become “weak” and in need of love and support too.

This year, I have slowly discovered myself again…. finding that “fun” mum again. Both my kids need me more so now than ever and they are my strength to believe that I am not alone and that I am this beautiful soul waiting to soar alongside my beautiful current family.

Here are these photo memories that remind me, not what I have lost but with this beautiful soul where I will keep you (‘chelle) in my heart……